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January 2016 – Journeying Into Mystery

Psalm Offering 1 Opus 4

Mom as a freshman at Mount Mercy College, 1939Picture: My mother as a Freshman at Mount Mercy College, Pittsburgh, PA.

 

 

 

 

 

Jean, age 10, in her butterfly costumeMy mother at the age of 10 year, in her butterfly costume. In the play in which she wore the costume, she accidentally knocked down part of the scenery with her wings.

Psalm Offering 1 Opus 4 was composed for my mother around the year 1988. My mother had a fascination for all things Japanese. A lot of Japanese art hung on the walls of her home. I composed this as a birthday present for her that year. The melody is made up out of the pentatonic scale, 5 pitches, largely associated with Asian music. Think of the melody being played only on the black keys of the piano. It was written in the key of Gb major. The melody segues to G major, and then ends enharmonically in F# major, (Gb major only with sharps). I had thought I had lost this music, but in going through a bin full of musical sketches and other bits and pieces I have composed over the years, I found this Psalm Offering in its entirety. I am so grateful it has seen the light of day once more!

Psalm Offering 8 Opus 1

Bob's graduation picture, College of St Thomas, 1974My graduation picture in 1974, the same year I composed this Psalm Offering.

Bob 3As I appear today.

 

 

 

 

NOTES: Psalm Offering 8 was principally written for myself. It was not done with narcissistic intent or malice. Rather, I had written all this other music for others, I wanted one specific song I could call my own. I was soaking in musical influences from the Baroque Period to the Modern Period of music. I learned as much as I could from composers like Bach, Mozart, Schubert, Listz, Mendelssohn, Debussy, Ravel and so on. One composer that struck my fancy was the 20th century German composer Paul Hindemith. He did not follow strictly the atonal school of composition that Schoenberg and others like Schoenberg had established. Rather he dipped into all the musical influences from the past and present to establish his own style. Dissonance was as much at home in his music as consonance. His piano suite Ludus Tonalis, was a particular favorite of mine. It was in the style of Hindemith in which I wrote this Psalm Offering. I would compose more in this style, particularly Psalm Offering 1 Opus 2. While I played this at home, as I developed more and more into a liturgical musician, I began to use this short little piece of music as a prelude to Mass or at post-communion. It remains for me today, one of my favorite compositions for piano.

THE MUSIC: This Psalm Offering is in simple three part, ABA, form. Melody A is introduced, repeated then segues into melody B. There is a recapitulation of melody A to the Coda.

Psalm Offering 7 Opus 1

Pope_John_XXIII_-_1959NOTES: This Psalm Offering was written in 1974 and dedicated to Pope John XXIII. I remember distinctly as a kid, the opening of the Second Vatican Council. While I experienced the transition from serving Mass in Latin to serving Mass in English, I didn’t fully appreciate the tremendous contribution Pope John XXIII made to the Church by convening the Council. Why did I pick a Fugue to compose for this Psalm Offering? How could such an old form of music from the Baroque Period represent such a dynamic man? This Fugue has a dynamic quality to it that truly characterizes the life of Pope John XIII. There is a relentless power in a Fugue. The subject of the Fugue, a short melody, gets introduced and repeated over and over in different key areas both major and minor, sometimes inverted, sometimes backward (called retrograde), sometimes slowed down (augmented) and sometimes sped up (diminished). Just as the subject of a Fugue dominates the music and continues through to the end of the Fugue, so the work begun by Pope John XXIII has not ended but continues to be implemented in spite of John Paul II and Benedict XVI. It is with great relief and satisfaction that Pope Francis I is continuing to undo the harm done by the previous two Popes, and completing the implementation of the Second Vatican Council. The principle pitches from this Fugue subject I would take 12 years later and fashion a new melody dedicated to Archbishop Oscar Romero (Psalm Offering 6 Opus 2), an equally dynamic and inspiring man. The next time I would write a Fugue would be to celebrate the 12th anniversary of my marriage to Ruth (Psalm Offering 9 Opus 2).

THE MUSIC: This is a three part Fugue (three voices). Unlike most of the homophonic music of today (that is, a melody supported by chords), a Fugue is polyphonic music, that is the juxtaposition of melody upon melody upon melody. The interaction of these melodies with each other provides the harmonies. The Fugue begins with the Fugue subject introduced in the key of C minor. The subject gets passed off to the second voice in a different key, and then to the third voice in another key area. A musical bridge of short elements from the subject link the different incarnations of the fugue subject throughout the Fugue, with the subject changing from minor to major keys, the subject getting inverted (turned upside down), or being slowed down (augumented) or sped up (diminished) or played backward (retrograde). This basic structure, fugue subject, musical bridge, fugue subject, musical bridge is the form of the music, until there is a final coda, or conclusion. This Fugue beings in the key area of C minor and ends in the Coda with a resounding fortissississimo (fff) on the pitch of C in the three lowest octaves on the piano.

Psalm Offering 6 Opus 1

ps_2015_07_03___17_38_32(photograph – Ruthie’s graduation photograph)

 

 

 

 

 

more pictures 033(photo of Ruth when this Psalm Offering was composed for her.)

 

 

 

NOTES: Psalm Offering 6 was composed in 1970 as an assignment for Music Theory 1 in college. The assignment was to compose music in the form of an Etude, etudes being basically a music exercise for the hands. Some of the more famous Etudes were written by Frederick Chopin, most people having heard the #12 Etude, also known as the “Revolutionary” Etude. What I handed in was the first 20 measures. I remember I knew the intention of my Etude was arpeggio exercises for the right hand. I worked out the chord progression (harmonic rhythm for the musically astute) but could not think of a melody to go along with the arpeggios in the right hand. I went to bed and in the middle of the night, the melody came to me in a dream. I awakened and quickly wrote down the melody I heard in the dream. After it was graded I knew that I wanted to compose it as a present for Ruth. From the time I was a Junior in high school, I was in love with this beautiful girl, Ruth Ahmann. Ruthie and I dated steadily since May of 1969. I had my whole life planned, and the biggest part of that plan was to marry Ruth. I took my Etude assignment and expanded the original 20 measures and gave it to Ruth. As you know, the biggest part of plan was realized and Ruthie and I were married in 1974. I revisited this Psalm Offering in 1985, altering the middle section slightly. When Ruthie heard this Psalm Offering today, she thought it was brand new. I guess a few years have gone by since she last heard it in 1970. One thing has not changed over the years. My life still revolves around that beautiful brunette haired girl with the most magnificent smile.

THE MUSIC: This Psalm Offering is in simple 4 part,AABA, form. Melody A is introduced in the left hand, while the right hand accompanies the melody with ascending and descending arpeggios and then restated. The melody segues into melody B, with arpeggios in the left hand and melody in the right. It segues back into melody A for the grand finale.

Psalm Offering 5 Opus 1

mary ruth had to have her own pictureMy little sister, Mary Ruth at the age of 3 years.

mary ruth, july 1973Mary Ruth at the age of 18 years, 1973, the year that I wrote this music for her.

NOTES: This Psalm Offering is dedicated to my sister, Mary Ruth Wagner. I wrote this in 1973, when I was a Junior at the College of St. Thomas, St. Paul, MN. Mary had just graduated from Our Lady of Peace, and, sadly, was the last graduating class from that all girl Catholic High School (so it was not just teenage angst that produced such a wonderful demeanor in the picture above). It was about this time in her life that Crohn’s disease, the illness which afflicted her from this time forward and would eventually end her life, began to affect her health in a major way. At the time, internal medicine was just discovering what Crohn’s disease was, and Mary was treated for other illnesses before her doctors finally made the correct diagnosis. Mary would live another 24 years, go on to become an Occupational Therapist, graduating from the College of St. Catherine, and obtaining a Graduated Degree in Education from the University of St. Thomas. Between 1973 and her death in 1997, Mary had close to 30 surgeries, all Crohn’s Disease related. The doctors were finally unable to stop her internal bleeding and she passed away on August 10, 1997. In her 42 years of life, Mary squeezed a lot of living, traveling to Europe, Australia, Tahiti, Hawaii, and, even at her sickest, camped in the Boundary Waters of Minnesota. She was fortunate that two of her classmates from Our Lady of Peace, became medical doctors, and they often accompanied her on her journeys abroad. Mary has been dead for 18 1/2 years, and not a day passes without me thinking of her.

THE MUSIC: As stated above, I wrote this as a music major in the year of 1973. It is a waltz in the key of G minor. While it has a vibrant tempo and the swirly feeling of three that accompanies waltzes, there is a tinge of melancholy in the music. It is in simple three part, ABA, form. Melody A is introduced, leading into melody B. A bridge comprising elements of melody A and trills leads to a restatement of melody B, before it segues back to A, as it gets slower and softer to the end of the music. In re-editing this music in 2016, with the exception of adding dotted rhythm in a few places, I did little to change this music. It is just a little waltz in a minor key area. Little did I know at the time of composition, it would be a musical reflection of my sister’s life, that is, short, adventuresome, and filled with both a lot of pain and a lot of love.

Psalm Offering 4 Opus 1

 

437px-Flagellation-of-christ-_Rubens (painting – “The Flagellation of Jesus”, Reubens)

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(Photograph – Dead Confederate Soldier, Gettysburg)

NOTES:  Psalm Offering 4 is dedicated to all victims of violence. Reuben’s painting “The Flagellation of Jesus” juxtaposed with the picture of the dead Confederate soldier in the aftermath of the Battle of Gettysburg underscores the last judgment scene in Matthew’s Gospel, Chapter 36, “when you do this to the least of these, you do it to me.” While Jesus was referring to clothing the naked, feeding the hungry, visiting the imprisoned, welcoming the stranger,” conversely, when we injure our neighbor, kill our neighbor, who are all a part of the cosmic Body of Christ, we are also inflicting violence upon Jesus. This Psalm Offering is not just for the victims of war, but for the victims of domestic violence, the victims of racial prejudice, the victims of poverty all of which inflict as much psychological violence upon people as physical violence.

THE MUSIC: In comparison to the other music in Opus 1, one might upon hearing it for the first time (or for that matter every time) consider it the equivalent of George Harrison’s Hinduistic inspired song “Within You Without You” on the Beatle’s album, “Sergeant Pepper’s Lonely Heart Club Band.” I must confess that as much as I value all the music on “Sergeant Pepper”, upon the first 30 or so listenings, I would skip over Harrison’s contribution to get to “When I’m 64”. This Psalm Offering with all its dissonance might have the same effect for people. However, I find its starkness a welcoming contrast in a sonic sea of consonance. This Psalm Offering was originally an assignment in the composition of atonal, serial music for my Music Theory 2 class in 1971. Serial music, while sounding rather arbitrary and dissonant (many considering the sound “ugly”) is actually more difficult to compose than the simple songs we normally hear. There are strict rules to follow  in the composition of serial music. In editing this Psalm Offering in 2016, I have  composed and inserted new passages, namely the ostinato sections, into the music to lend a little more interest. The form of the song is a simple three part, ABA, form. It begins establishing melody A, that is introducing and establishing the tone row of pitches, much like the introduction of the “subject” or short melody, in a Baroque Period Fugue. Melody A is repeated varying the rhythm of the pitches in the tone row. The newly composed melody B, while remaining faithful to atonal music principles abandons the tone row with the introduction of an ostinato pattern in the lower register of the piano. Melody B segues back into the tone row of melody A, albeit, using different rhythm patterns for the tone row. This segues back into melody B with the introduction of the ostinato pattern in the lower register. Climaxing with a fortissimo, the music ends stating verbatim the opening measures of the music as it gradually decrescendos to the last pitches.

 

Psalm Offering 3 Opus 1

Jean Wagner, honeymoon, Lake Chataugua, 1949(photograph of my mother as a young bride on her honeymoon, June of 1949)

bob's granduation from cst, 1974

(photograph of my dad, Ruthie, myself, and my mom at my graduation from the College of St. Thomas, December 20, 1974, with a  Bachelor of Arts Degree in Music. One week later, Ruthie and I got married.

NOTES: This Psalm Offering is dedicated to my mother, Regina, aka “Queenie”, Jernstrom Wagner. My mom has been and remains an incredible person. She has always found great strength in God which has sustained her through many of tragedies in life, the death of her mother, when mom was 12 years old, her little sister dying two weeks later on Christmas Day, her dad dying when mom was 25 years old, the death of my sister, Mary, in 1997, and my Dad’s death in 2004. My mom received a Degree in Home Economics from Mount Mercy College in Pittsburgh, PA. She taught in the public school system, and later for the Gas Company in Pennsylvania conducting cooking schools throughout the state. She met my father, moved to Chicago, and raised her family. Though she substitute taught in the Catholic Schools, she insisted on receiving no pay, believing she had already been paid in having had the opportunity to receive her teachers degree in Home Economics. Always one seeking to help others, she continues to do so even now that she is 94 years of age. I composed this Psalm Offering for her in 1972.

THE MUSIC: The music is a variant of the Rondo form, ABCBAB. There is a running arpeggio in the left hand that carries throughout the entire Psalm Offering. Over that arpeggio melody A is introduced, seguing into melody B, followed by a key change to melody C, seguing back into the original key and melody B, moving back to melody A, and ending with a quote from melody B. I always thought of the left hand as a kind of water fountain flowing up from the lower register of the piano, cresting, then flowing back down. Though the Psalm Offering is written in Bb major, it has a kind of wistful, sad quality to it.

 

 

 

 

 

 

Psalm Offering 2 Opus 1

Bruce_Crandall's_UH-1D(Picture: November 1965, Major Bruce P. Crandall’s UH-1D helicopter climbs skyward after discharging a load of infantrymen on a search and destroy mission. Photograph in the Public Domain)

NOTES:  This Psalm Offering was written in 1971, when the Vietnam War, the war of my generation was still being fought. I was a Music Major in my Sophomore year at the College of St. Thomas at that time this was composed, and eligible for the draft. My draft status was 1-A. While I could have obtained a student deferment delaying my eligibility for the draft, I chose not to do so out of a feeling of solidarity with the men from my age group. As it ended up, Selective Service moved to a lottery system with random numbers assigned to dates of birth. The number for my birth date exceeded the number from which Selective Service drafted that year, moving my draft status from 1-A to 1-H (meaning if there was another World War III, I would be drafted). I never served in the Vietnam War, but knew many and worked with many who did. For those who served in combat, their tour of duty “In Country” was for one year. However, that one year serving in Vietnam continues to haunt and possess their souls, many men never recovering from the experiences of what they did, what they saw, and what happened to the people with whom they served and the people whom they fought. Pope John Paul II in condemning the invasion of Iraq by the United States issued this stern warning to our nation, “War is ALWAYS a defeat for humanity!” No one wins, all who participate in war end up broken. In the three years I ministered at St. Stephen’s in South Minneapolis, many of the homeless we served in the homeless shelter were former Vietnam War veterans, still broken psychologically from what they experienced in combat 40 years earlier. It is to all the men and women broken by that war that this Psalm Offering is dedicated.

THE MUSIC:  The Psalm Offering is in three part, ABA, form. Melody A begins with the tempo marking Lento con dolente, which literally mean slowly and mournfully, introducing the musical motif of war. Melody B is a little faster and more animated moving from a minor key area to a major key area. The dance like quality of melody B moving to a minor key as melody A is restated at the faster tempo, expresses the dance of the young going off to war, filled with war’s propagandized glory, unaware of their own mortality. Then mournfully as the tempo slows down to the original speed with melody A in octaves in the higher register and ponderous octaves in the lower register of the piano, the true nature of war, death and destruction, reveals itself and imprints itself on the young souls in combat. The Psalm Offering ends with a mournful sounding chord, tolling like a church bell that gradually chimes softer and softer.

LOVING IMPERFECTLY

DCP_0716The other day, as I was preparing for a Word and Communion service at the local nursing home, I stopped off at church to get the consecrated hosts for the service. I routinely loaded the hosts up into the ciborium I use for these services, counting out 60 hosts. I reverenced the tabernacle as I closed it, and as I did so I suddenly became very aware of Christ’s perfect love for me, and how imperfectly I love Christ in return. Audibly, I prayed, “Thank you Jesus for loving me so perfectly. Please know that I love you so very much, even though I love you so imperfectly.”

To be loved so perfectly by God, only to know how imperfectly I love God in return, is very humbling. Yet, it is also a great comfort. As I get older I have found comfort in the God that I use to fear as a child.

The Catholicism I was taught as a child emphasized how severe the consequences were of not following strictly the letter of the law. God was an exact and vindictive Deity, swift to judge, and judge severely. The words, “Lord have mercy,” were more a plea to not be condemned to everlasting damnation and was reflected in the wording of  Tridentine Canon (Eucharistic Prayer) of the Mass.

In this Year of Mercy, proclaimed by Pope Francis 1, we encounter not the God who notes down all of our transgressions, but the God who loves us, and our imperfections, perfectly . The context of mercy is no longer a plea to be saved from condemnation, but a word indicative of the overwhelming love and mercy of God. I follow Jesus because I have come to fully realize that Jesus is the way, the truth and the life; the pathway to eternal love.

This Year of Mercy negates all the superfluous embellishments people attach to prayer and religious practices in order to bargain or buy their way into heaven. The overwhelming Mercy of God strips away the false intentions that people attach to such things as indulgences or praying certain prayers on certain days of the month to assure them eternal life. As the Psalmist writes in Psalm 51, “For in sacrifice you take no delight, burnt offering from me you would refuse, my sacrifice, a contrite spirit. A humbled, contrite heart you will not spurn.”

It is out of this well of gratitude that I humbly follow Jesus, like Zacchaeus, imperfectly the rest of my life. I may love God imperfectly, but I am comforted and delighted that God, nonetheless, loves me perfectly.

(picture from the Holy Spirit Retreat Center in Janesville, MN. (c) 2004 by Deacon Bob Wagner OFS)

Connecting Our Life’s Story With Jesus – Homily for the 2nd Sunday in Ordinary Time

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Painting, “The Wedding At Cana”, Giotto, 14th century.

Stories are very important in our lives. Stories impact our lives, whether they are in book form, in audio form, or in visual form like television or movies. We can travel to faraway places, experience different cultures, experience the world in the past, meet historical men and women, and dream of what might be in the future all through story. Stories can impact our emotions. My dad use to tell the story of coming home from school to find my grandmother all upset about the injustices heaped upon some poor woman, only to find that that poor woman was a character on one of my grandmother’s favorite radio soap operas. Stories can entertain and relax us. Ruthie use to unwind after working nights by climbing into a hot bath with a Harlequin Romance. How many of us were thrilled to be taken away to the imaginary world of Hogwarts with Harry Potter, Hermoine Granger, Ron Weasley and Professor Dumbledore?

Stories are so important that I would go so far to say that they are essential to our lives as human beings. Are not the stories which we share and to which we listen around the table at Christmas and Thanksgiving, at family reunions, weddings, and funerals important to us? It is these family stories that assist us in figuring out who we are as individuals and as people within the family. Of all the stories we know in our lives, the most important and essential story for us to hear and to know is the story told around this table (indicate the altar), the story of our Church family, that is, the story of Jesus of Nazareth.

The four Gospels are all about how the story of Jesus has interacted and connected with the life stories of the people in the faith communities who wrote the Gospels. In reading and listening to the stories of Jesus in the Gospels, we find there are some stories that were so important that all four Gospels tell them, the most important one of all, the passion, death, and resurrection of Jesus. And there are some stories that are important in one Gospel but are slightly different in another, or may not even be present in other Gospels. What all four Gospels share is how strongly the story of Jesus impacted the life stories of the people in those faith communities, and how strongly those stories continue to impact our own life story.

Today we hear the story of Jesus at the wedding in Cana. If this story was just about Jesus turning gallons upon gallons of water into finest of all wine, it would be a remarkable story. However, what makes this story even more incredible is that at this wedding in Cana, Jesus, in a very public way, openly connects the story of his life with the story of all human lives, yours and mine included. At the wedding in Cana, Jesus announces to all who will listen that that for which humanity longed so much, the coming of the Messiah to save all people, has arrived. It is as if Jesus was telling the people of his time, “I am the Son of God and I am here to share my life with your lives. I am here to share in your sorrows and in your joys. I am here to be present to you during the dark times of your lives, and during the good times of your lives. I am here to give you happiness beyond all of your dreams if only you will connect your lives with mine.”

How important is the story of Jesus for us? I must confess that when I was young, it wasn’t on the top list of important stories for me. However, I remember very distinctly that first moment when my story and that of God interacted very strongly. It was at the moment when my first child was born. I was 22 years old, standing behind the doctor watching as the head and then the body of my son, Andy, emerged from Ruthie’s womb. It was at that very moment that I felt the presence of God in that delivery room. God’s presence was so strong and so filled the room that had I lifted my hand, I swear I would have touched the face of God. It was my Moses encountering the burning bush, St. Paul encountering Jesus on the road to Damascus moment of conversion. As I continued to reflect on my life from that moment on, I found that the presence of God intersecting with my life was not just an isolated occurrence but something that had been happening all along. I just was too self-focused or distracted to notice it happening.

When we are young we are so busy trying to discover just who we are, feeling the need for independence, that it is easy to miss or overlook the times that Jesus has entered into our life’ story. As adults, we are so busy or distracted by all the things we have to do to raise a family or to thrive and perhaps just survive, that we can miss or overlook the times that the story of Jesus has encountered our lives. There are two simple ways by which we can see the presence of Jesus in the story of our lives.

As I did following the birth of Andy, we need to find a time to quietly reflect on our life’s story from the time we were born to where we find ourselves now. While we may not have had the Cana experience of water being turned into wine moments anywhere along that continuum of time, look for the important events and the people that have been significant in our lives. As we deeply reflect on those events and people in our life, we will find the presence of Jesus there participating through those people or in those events in some way.

The second way is that at the end of each day before falling asleep, let us think about our day. Jesus Christ was present to us throughout the day. In the people and the events of the day, where did we encounter Jesus? Did we recognize Jesus and participate in his presence, or did we walk away and ignore his presence? Before falling asleep, using our own words, let us pray to Jesus that our five senses will be more open to his presence, inviting him to share his life more deeply with that of ours when we awaken in the morning and head out into the new day.

Stories are very important in our lives. Stories impact our lives, whether they are in book form, in audio form, or in visual form like television or movies. We can travel to faraway places, experience different cultures, experience the world in the past, meet historical men and women, and dream of what might be in the future all through story. My dad use to tell the story of coming home from school to find my grandmother all upset about the injustices heaped upon some poor woman, only to find that that poor woman was a character on one of my grandmother’s favorite radio soap operas. Stories can entertain and relax us. Ruthie use to unwind after working nights by climbing into a hot bath with a Harlequin Romance. How many of us thrilled to be taken away to the imaginary world of Hogwarts with Harry Potter, Hermoine Granger, Ron Weasley and Professor Dumbledore?

Stories are so important that I would go so far to say that they are essential to our lives as human beings. Are not the stories which we share and to which we listen around the table at Christmas and Thanksgiving, at family reunions, weddings, and funerals important to us? It is these family stories that assist us in figuring out who we are as individuals and as people within the family. Of all the stories we know in our lives, the most important and essential story for us to hear and to know is the story told around this table (indicate the altar), the story of our Church family, that is, the story of Jesus of Nazareth.

The four Gospels are all about how the story of Jesus has interacted and connected with the life stories of the people in the faith communities who wrote the Gospels. In reading and listening to the stories of Jesus in the Gospels, we find there are some stories that were so important that all four Gospels tell them, the most important one of all, the passion, death, and resurrection of Jesus. And there are some stories that are important in one Gospel but are slightly different in another, or may not even be present in other Gospels. What all four Gospels share is how strongly the story of Jesus impacted the life stories of the people in those faith communities, and how strongly those stories continue to impact our own life story.

Today we hear the story of Jesus at the wedding in Cana. If this story was just about Jesus turning gallons upon gallons of water into finest of all wine, it would be a remarkable story. However, what makes this story even more incredible is that at this wedding in Cana, Jesus, in a very public way, openly connects the story of his life with the story of all human lives, yours and mine included. At the wedding in Cana, Jesus announces to all who will listen that that for which humanity longed so much, the coming of the Messiah to save all people, has arrived. It is as if Jesus was telling the people of his time, “I am the Son of God and I am here to share my life with your lives. I am here to share in your sorrows and in your joys. I am here to be present to you during the dark times of your lives, and during the good times of your lives. I am here to give you happiness beyond all of your dreams if only you will connect your lives with mine.”

How important is the story of Jesus for us? I must confess that when I was young, it wasn’t on the top list of important stories for me. However, I remember very distinctly that first moment when my story and that of God interacted very strongly. It was at the moment when my first child was born. I was 22 years old, standing behind the doctor watching as the head and then the body of my son, Andy, emerged from Ruthie’s womb. It was at that very moment that I felt the presence of God in that delivery room. God’s presence was so strong and so filled the room that had I lifted my hand, I swear I would have touched the face of God. It was my Moses encountering the burning bush, St. Paul encountering Jesus on the road to Damascus moment of conversion. As I continued to reflect on my life from that moment on, I found that the presence of God intersecting with my life was not just an isolated occurrence but something that had been happening all along. I just was too self-focused or distracted to notice it happening.

When we are young we are so busy trying to discover just who we are, feeling the need for independence, that it is easy to miss or overlook the times that Jesus has entered into our life’ story. As adults, we are so busy or distracted by all the things we have to do to raise a family or to thrive and perhaps just survive, that we can miss or overlook the times that the story of Jesus has encountered our lives. There are two simple ways by which we can see the presence of Jesus in the story of our lives.

As I did following the birth of Andy, we need to find a time to quietly reflect on our life’s story from the time we were born to where we find ourselves now. While we may not have had the Cana experience of water being turned into wine moments anywhere along that continuum of time, look for the important events and the people that have been significant in our lives. As we deeply reflect on those events and people in our life, we will find the presence of Jesus there participating through those people or in those events in some way.

The second way is that at the end of each day before falling asleep, let us think about our day. Jesus Christ was present to us throughout the day. In the people and the events of the day, where did we encounter Jesus? Did we recognize Jesus and participate in his presence, or did we walk away and ignore his presence? Before falling asleep, using our own words, let us pray to Jesus that our five senses will be more open to his presence, inviting him to share his life more deeply with that of ours when we awaken in the morning and head out into the new day.

Just as Jesus was willing to share his life with the people at that wedding in Cana, so Jesus wants to share his life with us today. Let us invite Jesus to share his story with ours. Let us be willing to share and connect our life’s story with that of his. I invite you to open your hymnal to #651, and together let us prayerfully sing  “Open My Eyes.”

Just as Jesus was willing to share his life with the people at that wedding in Cana, so Jesus wants to share his life with us today. Let us invite Jesus to share his story with ours. Let us be willing to share and connect our life’s story with that of his. I invite you to open your hymnal to #651, and together let us prayerfully sing  “Open My Eyes.”

Open my eyes, Lord. Help me to see your face. Open my eyes, Lord. Help me to see.

Open my ears, Lord, Help me to hear your voice. Open my ears, Lord, Help me to hear.

Open my heart, Lord, Help me to love like you. Open my heart, Lord, Help me to love.

I live within you, Deep in your heart, O Love, I live within you, Rest now in me.