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May 2018 – Journeying Into Mystery

MEMORIAL DAY 2018 (REMEMBERING BULL RUN)

This poem is a meditation on war. Unless we have lost a loved one in combat, war is a spectator sport for many Americans. It is reminiscent of the first battle of the Civil War, Bull Run. The gentry from Washington D.C. ate picnics overlooking the battle field. They largely believed the Union Army would defeat the Confederate Army soundly, thus ending the Civil War in one decisive battle. I wonder if they choked on their food and drink as they observed the carnage of the battle, and watched their Union Army completely eviscerated by the Confederate Army, gathering up the remains of their picnic or perhaps emptying what they had eaten on the ground before running for their own lives, as the Confederate Army was poised outside of the nation’s capital?

We still love the carnage of war, unless of course, it affects us directly. With the exception of Spielberg, much of war is still just glorified entertainment. Whether it be movies, or television, computer generated games and so on, we picnic as we watch the carnage on our screens entertain us. It is only when someone enters our homes, or  our school, our theater, our shopping mall, our concert site with a weapon of war and opens it up on us that we suddenly experience that which many in the military have experience. Let us remember in prayer those who have died in battle, not only in war, but in the war that is raging about us in our classrooms, our cities, our neighborhoods and in our homes.

MEMORIAL DAY 2018 (REMEMBERING BULL RUN)

War.
A spectator sport.
The gentry of Bull Run
settling on hills
overlooking battlefields,
picnic baskets opened,
food and drink consumed
while watching the poor
slaughter each other on
the ground beneath them.
Those feasting on the hills above
have little at risk, perhaps
making huge profits
at the expense of those
whose bodies are eviscerated by
gunfire, human litter of
entrails and limbs
scattered over the ground
of the playing field,
painted in the color of death.

One year later.
Ground once teeming with life
now teeming with death,
bones of horse and men
still unburied, still exposed
to the human eye,
bleached by the sunlight,
stepped upon by soldiers’ feet
advancing across the same
field only to add their
limbs, their eviscerated bodies
like ragdolls, scattered
across the ground,
their bones piled upon
the bones of their ancestors.
What were they thinking
as they entered into combat,
to be one moment living, breathing,
only to awaken in the darkness
far beneath the ground?

We still play with human lives,
war glorified gaming by
chicken hawks occupying
high places in government posts.
We still eat our picnics
entertained by the death
of others, whether in a
movie theater, on television,
on a computer screen,
watching human beings
slaughter each other
for our own amusement.
Safely watching the slaughter
unless someone with an AR-15
enters our theater, our living
room, our study, and
we discover that our own
bodies are not immune
to the bullets
that scatter our limbs,
our entrails about
our blood painting the
floor, walls and ceiling
in death’s color.
We join our lives to
those lives with which
we played, to find
ourselves alive for a moment
suddenly entering into darkness
the ground piled above our heads,
awaiting the Second Coming.

© 2018, Robert Charles Wagner

HOMILY FOR PENTECOST

I remember when my son, Luke, received the sacrament of Confirmation. His Confirmation Mass was at St Wenceslaus on a Sunday afternoon. The bishop called for all the Confirmation candidates to stand. He then extended his hands over them and called upon the Holy Spirit to come down upon the Confirmation candidates. At that precise moment, something began swooping over the heads of the Confirmation candidates. It wasn’t a dove, nor some bird that somehow got trapped in church. It was a bat making this great swooping arc from the choir loft over the heads of the kids, turning around in the sanctuary, flying back up to the choir loft and then swooping down again. The kids didn’t know whether  to stand , duck, run or cry. Eventually, the ushers using the collection baskets chased the bat into the west stairwell and closed the door. I thought it was both ironic and amusing. Not all shared my sentiments. But the one thing we could agree on was that it was surprising. Surprising is a good feeling word for what the apostles experienced that Pentecost Sunday so many centuries ago.

We hear Jesus tell the apostles in the Gospel today, “I have much more to tell you, but you cannot bear it now. But when he comes, the Spirit of truth, he will guide you to all truth.” This Gospel is taken from the Last Supper discourse in John’s Gospel. This is Jesus’ last teaching to the apostles before his arrest, his torture, and his execution on the cross. Jesus knows that the events that are about to happen will shake the apostles to the very core and that much he could reveal to them would be forgotten by the terror they would experience over the next several days. Jesus reassures them that in spite of all that will happen, in the end, everything will turn out well. When the time is right, the Holy Spirit will come to them and they will understand why Jesus had to suffer and die. Everything will be made right and whole again in the Resurrection of Jesus.

What was true for the apostles is true for us, too. Our whole lives are not revealed to us at our birth. We could never be able to take all that knowledge in at one time. We need to be surprised. When I wass 22 years of age, I married Ruthie, and thought that the rest of my life would be spent as a music educator, composing music, living in destitution and being buried in a pauper’s grave. Had I known that I would be doing what I am doing right now, I might have suggested someone take me out in the yard and put me out of my misery. As we all know our lives unfold and surprises happen along the way. Through the power of the Holy Spirit we are guided and gradually come to know that which we are suppose to do in our lives. We gradually learn the gifts the Holy Spirit has bestowed upon us and how those gifts can benefit the lives of others. The Holy Spirit uses the failures in our lives to help guide us along the path we have been called by God to take. Not all surprises are fun. Some are painful. Through the power of the Holy Spirit we can even begin to understand the suffering we have in our own lives. I have told this story before. After a serious head-on collision on highway 21, I found myself in the trauma unit at North Memorial Hospital. I remember Fr Steve Ulrick, the pastor of St Hubert, visiting me. I had gotten out of surgery and had all sorts of tubes and electrical leads going in and out of me. Steve looked at me and said, “So, where is the grace?” My first inclination, punch him in the nose. I replied that I had no clue as to where the grace was but would eventually find out. That was true a statement. I knew that over the next 18 months as I recovered from that car accident the Holy Spirit would reveal much I had needed to learn from that car accident and the suffering that accompanied it.

You see, we just don’t encounter the Holy Spirit in the sacraments or those “churchy” moments in our lives. We are in the presence of the Holy Spirit at all times. We move, live and have our being in the Holy Spirit. The Holy Spirit is all around us, above, below, and within us. And so we pray,Come, Holy Spirit, fill the hearts of your faithful, and enkindle in us the fire of your love. Send forth your Spirit and we shall be created, and you shall renew the face of the earth. Amen.”

REFLECTION FOR PENTECOST

Of all the images used for the Holy Spirit, the most profound image for me is that of the “breath of God.” Ruah is the Hebraic word for the breath of God. In the very beginning, God breathed upon the waters of the abyss, and life came forth. In Ezekial 37, the prophet sees a valley filled with the dead bones of an army. God tells Ezekiel to prophesy to the bones. As the prophet does so, the bones reconnect and sinew, muscle, and flesh form on the bones. Then God tells Ezekiel to prophesy to the breath, as the prophet does so, the breath of God present in the four winds descends upon the valley and reanimates the dead bodies of the army. God’s breath flows through all of creation animating the life in all living creatures, plants, in our soil, our water, our air, and has left its imprint on the mighty geography of our planet.

We like to compartmentalize our lives into “church/religion” on Sunday, and then the rest of our time outside of church away from God. When we reimage the Holy Spirit as God’s breath we cannot separate ourselves from God, for God is present in the very air around us which we breathe into our lungs. There is no away time from God for God is everywhere. We exist because God wills it, and our very existence is within in God. To try to exist outside of God would bring about instantaneous physical and spiritual death. Present-day humanity that prides itself on being self-reliant, self-made and beholding to nobody but itself does not want to hear this truth. Without God’s breath, our bodies are nothing but a heap of dead, dry bones. We are totally and completely reliant on God.

On Pentecost, the mighty wind of God’s breath blew through the city of Jerusalem into the people of that Upper Room. They went forth from that room and with the power of that Divine Breath, utterly changed humanity. All of humanity’s wisdom and knowledge, scientific breakthroughs, art, music, poetry, literature, all things good come to us in the Holy Spirit, the Divine Breath of God. On this Solemnity of the Pentecost, may the Holy Spirit, the Divine Breath of God, stir within our bodies, minds, and souls an equal zeal to go forth and change the world.

For the children and teachers massacred yesterday in Santa Fe, Texas. Psalm Offering 3 Opus 9

This Psalm Offering was composed for the victims of the Parkland High School massacre on Valentine’s Day this year. It is offered up as a prayer for those massacred at the high school in Santa Fe, Texas yesterday.

(c) 2018, Robert Charles Wagner. All rights reserved.

For Trish Flannigan: Psalm Offering 10 Opus 5 – Abba, Yeshua, Ruah

PSALM OFFERING 10 OPUS 5 – Abba, Yeshua, Ruah (For Trish Flannigan)

This music, along with all of Opus 5, was composed during the Spring and Summer of 1994. Psalm Offerings 1 through 8 from this Opus were composed as gifts to my ordination brothers and sisters, Psalm Offering 9 was composed as a gift to Dr. Dolore Rockers OSF, and Abba, Yeshua, Ruah was composed for the ordination Mass and dedicated to Trish Flannigan, the “10th member” of my ordination class. Trish was the administrative secretary for Diaconal Formation and the Deacon Council of the Archdiocese of St Paul and Minneapolis. She is one of the most remarkable women I have known in my life. The institutional Church has a way of devaluing and using employees, and, sadly, Trish ended up being harshly treated by the Archdiocese. Instead of rewarding her for all her hard work and care she devoted to the diaconate, she was pretty much cast aside by Archbishop Flynn, and for peace of mind, heart and soul, left the ministry she loved.

The original version of this Psalm Offering was a choral hymn for 4 part choir and soloist, and was sung at the Preparation of the Gifts during the ordination Mass by a large “festival” choir comprised of many men and women from the parishes of the deacons being ordained, and under the direction of Dan Westmoreland. What is presented here is the hymn “recomposed or revoiced” for piano. What differentiates this version from the choral piece is the bridge that separates the three verses, and closes the piece as a Coda.

This adaptation was not as easy as one might think. What may work for voice, does not always translate well into instrumental piano. The text of the verses greatly enhance the vocal version. Without the text, it required much effort and thought to have just melody express the religious content of the original. What you hear is my best effort in doing this.

Abba, Yeshua, Ruah are the Aramaic and Hebraic words for Father, Jesus, Spirit, respectively. The use of the words, albeit in a foreign language, was my attempt to make the text express the true nature of the Trinity without the usual gender assignments we use in the English language,  Father, Son, and Holy Spirit.

This is the text for the hymn:

Abba, Abba.
May we be dwellings of Your holy love,
the love which You grace all below, above.
May we be dwellings of Your holy peace,
the peace for which all souls search and seek.
You loved so much that You sent Your Son.
Only in You can we leave as one.
Dwell in us Abba, so that all may feel
the touch of Your love and your peace-filled will.

Yeshua, Yeshua.
May we be servants of you, Eternal Word,
servants of you, Compassionate Word.
O may we seek you among the very least,
inviting all to our Abba’s feast.
You loved so much that You gave Your life.
You conquered our death so that we may rise.
O loving Jesus, may our bodies be,
Your living body for all to see.

Ruah, Ruah.
O Holy Spirit, come and make us whole,
enflame our hearts, our minds, our souls.
Inspire our actions, our fears relieve
so we may give to others what we’ve received.
Vessel of hope on our world outpoured.
Your healing breath our lives restore.
Infuse our lives now with your holy gifts
So in You, source of love, we may always live.

Abba, Yeshua, Ruah.

(c) 1994 and 2018, Robert Charles Wagner OFS. All rights reserved.

The Ascension – a call to mission

My father died early in the morning on November 13, 2004. I remember sitting dumbstruck next to his lifeless body. My father was the wisdom figure of the family, which included not only my own nuclear family but all his nieces and nephews and their spouses and children. They would call from all over the United States seeking his wisdom and knowledge, and, now he was gone. I was not only dumbstruck by the loss of my father, but by the realization that my role in the family had undergone a dramatic change. I was no longer a “kid”, anymore. The mantle of leadership and the wisdom, that hopefully accompanies leadership, had been passed on to me. There are many people who have experienced this same dramatic change in their lives as their parents died. The one question I believe we all ask is, “Are we up to the task of being the leaders of our families?”

I am sure the apostles were thinking similar thoughts as they watched Jesus ascend to the Father. Jesus entrusted to them the mission he had of proclaiming the Good News to people everywhere. I love the reaction of the angel in the Acts of the Apostles who basically tells the apostles to quit gawking at the empty sky into which Jesus ascended and get busy fulfilling the mission of Jesus. As we hear in the Gospel account, the apostles did exactly that, going forth to preach the Good News to everyone.

As Jesus entrusted his mission to the apostles, so the apostles have entrusted the same mission to generation after generation up to our present time. Today the angel from the Acts of the Apostles tells us to quit standing around and get busy proclaiming the Good News in word and in action. This mission is not isolated to just a few “holy people” but is entrusted to all who have been baptized.

In a recent conversation with my cousin, Kathy, I was touched to hear that my dad, when he was alive, often spoke highly of me to her, saying, that I was his twin. May Jesus say the same of us as we continue his mission to our world.

To find complete joy, a reflection on the readings for the 6th Sunday of Easter, year B

Have you ever noticed the number of “The Joy of …” books that are available either in hardcopy or digital formats? There are many books promising joy on all sorts of topics. The Joy of 1) Cooking, 2) Mathematics, 3) Running, 4) Sex, 5) Cookies, 6) Doing Nothing, 7) Retirement,  to name just a few. Over my lifetime I have read quite a number of “The Joy of …” books. For all the topics on “joy” I have read, none has increased the level of joy in my life. Today, Jesus makes a promise to us. If we remain in him and he in us, and if we live his commandment, then we will not only have joy in our lives, we will experience “complete joy.”

So what is this commandment we must live in order to attain complete joy? It is expressed by Jesus as “love one another as I have loved you.” In 1 John, it is expressed that we must love one another because love is of God. To find complete joy we cannot focus our joy in loving only ourselves. Rather, complete joy is found in our lives only by focusing our love on someone else.

All the books that begin with the words “The Joy of …” are about only finding joy and fulfillment for ourselves. Our society is currently one in which the only person that is important is “me” to the exclusion of everyone else. This is narcissistic individualism. It breaks down the relationships that must exist for a healthy human society, including the relationships within our own families. Narcissism is not the path to complete joy, rather, it is the path to complete despair.

To find the complete joy that Jesus promises, we must love as Jesus loved, in short, focusing our love on God and on our neighbor. This act of giving our love to God and others empties ourselves of the narcissism that fills our lives. In emptying the self-conceit and self-centeredness from our lives, we will find God filling the empty space with Divine joy.